My Own Big Midlife Moment

Life is short, very short when it's all said and done and whilst I've been reminded of the value of time, I've also learned to begin to craft a life I love and honour future me with the decisions that I make today.

Future me is waiting for the gifts of good health, great relationships with family and friends and financial security for the big life ahead.

I’ve got plans, big plans, so whether it's the one year older version of me, or the 5 year wiser self, sending myself some love and the gifts that I need for a great life.

It’s so easy to sit back and do nothing. Six years ago I stopped training, my nutrition fell away and in the depths of a hidden despair I retreated into myself. Illness found me and it’s been a long road back. Finding a way out has been the harding thing to do.

If I had my time over again, I would have slowed down and processed it all, maybe even stopped work for a while, but I didn’t. I plowed on, ignored the signs and tested the boundaries of my own mental health. Six years of insomnia, inactivity and overwork. My brain sometimes wants to explode. Today I start over and leave behind my own midife pause.

Over the past few years life has shown me that time is our greatest gift. More isn't promised and yesterday will never be again. Creating a manifesto of my own feels right. Without, is like a boat without a captain and chance is a terrible navigator.

So I begin again to write, share the lessons I’ve learnt, the great books I’ve read and my plan for my own midlife and beyond. It seems like as I get closer to another decade milestone I search for answers. I read a lot, almost 1000 books, most of which I still have in my library. A place I retreat to when I’m tired or seeking a quiet moment.

And for the cost of a book, maybe $20 or so, most of the answers are in between the pages. I’ve spent thousands, maybe tens of thousands of dollars on trainers, doctors, specialists, nutrition coaches, therapists. But ultimately I know what I have to do. There are no silver bullets to short cut the process of living a healthier and happier life. 60 beckons and if I start now to rebuild, tomorrow will be better.

I encourage you to dream about your life, define your future plans and get on with it and get started. Small steps bring big results. This I know to be true. Oh, and stop people pleasing and say NO more often! We will talk about that too!! Time to get in front of the camera rather than behind and put myself out there. Women in their 50’s and 60’s can almost be invisible and I’d like to change that. To let go of my own imposter syndrome and step out from the darkness of what has been a really shitty block of time.

Imagine 5 years from now and where you will be. I've lived on this earth for over 20,000 days and I won't waste another year putting off what I know I should do today.